Sometimes needs creep up on you and then all of a sudden, they hit like a thunderstorm. You are caught unaware, and you grapple with how to meet those needs. That happened to me today. After several weekends of dedicated effort in a number of arenas, I was struck with a tremendous need to think, write, and have some me-time. Like a gale of wind, I was practically knocked down by this tremendous wave.
I reached out to a few allies, only to realize that allies for one cause may not be empathetic allies for other causes. Hence, that didn't work. Then, as if stuck to the chair, I didn't move, but simply took the time to do what I needed to do--think, write, consider, decide.
I am always fighting that impetus to be super human, the impetus that tells you, "Yes, you can do it all," since I truly would like to do it all, but like everyone else, I'm not super human. My mind's eye is always ten times greater or more than reality--that's a perennial challenge in this life I lead. I love what I can see, and I am often frustrated and impatient with the fact that I can't make my vision happen as quickly as I can imagine that vision.
I counter this vision-action mismatch with good schedules, long term planning, teamwork, and writing which is often successful, but then, there are times like today when I am simply unsuccessful at bridging the gap between vision and action, and that's when those thunderstorms of frustration occur.
Yet, I took the frustration, changed my plans and carved out some me-time because I know that's necessary before the busy, busy work week ahead. Onward.
I reached out to a few allies, only to realize that allies for one cause may not be empathetic allies for other causes. Hence, that didn't work. Then, as if stuck to the chair, I didn't move, but simply took the time to do what I needed to do--think, write, consider, decide.
I am always fighting that impetus to be super human, the impetus that tells you, "Yes, you can do it all," since I truly would like to do it all, but like everyone else, I'm not super human. My mind's eye is always ten times greater or more than reality--that's a perennial challenge in this life I lead. I love what I can see, and I am often frustrated and impatient with the fact that I can't make my vision happen as quickly as I can imagine that vision.
I counter this vision-action mismatch with good schedules, long term planning, teamwork, and writing which is often successful, but then, there are times like today when I am simply unsuccessful at bridging the gap between vision and action, and that's when those thunderstorms of frustration occur.
Yet, I took the frustration, changed my plans and carved out some me-time because I know that's necessary before the busy, busy work week ahead. Onward.