I signed on to an expert group to meet an important goal. I needed their skill, knowledge, tools, and outlook to reach a goal where my capacity was somewhat compromised by lack of knowledge, confidence, tools, and skill. So far, the expertise of the group has impacted my life positively, yet I find myself somewhat reluctant to follow all of their advice and to trust all of their skill. Why?
I'm not sure why I cannot muster full 100% trust or allegiance, but I suspect that it has something to do with the steep learning curve I'm involved in. This group is pushing me into new terrain, and that new terrain is clearly demonstrating to me how much I don't know and don't do in this realm. That sense of not knowing and not doing can be defeating at times. How could I get to this age and be so ignorant with regard to this specific area of life? Some of the distrust likely is due to the fact that the new knowledge has hit me like a tidal wave, knocking me down, and challenging to pick myself up in new and more positive ways.
In truth, when it comes to my area of challenge, the experts do know better, and I have to trust their direction. In fact, I find myself reading a lot of articles related to their advice, and those articles clearly support the experts' advice, advice that is different than what I thought I knew.
Sometimes people do know better, and we have to step aside and let them lead the way. Our lives will be better for it. Onward.